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I'm happy, though I'm sad.

Taken from Multiply.

Title: Ok na.

Problema nga naman, makes you say things that you don't wanna say, do things that you don't wanna do, think about things that won't really happen. Kung iisipin mo, pag dumadating ang problema, we do/say things which we regret afterwards. Sa ngayon, I think nireregret ko yung sinabi kong 'feel ko lang lumayo sa kanya, para ok ang lahat.' `coz it won't be okay if I did stay away. Everything will turn to worse, mas mabigat siguro ang pag-take ko sa mga problema kung ganun ang ginawa ko. Mabuti na lang ..

Buti na lang talaga, nakapagusap kami kagabi. Ayun. As in sobrang iyak ako. Nabasa niya yung blog ko about dun nga, tapos syempre, nag-advice na naman sya. Tinatanong nia nga kung nagtatampo daw ba ko dun sa isa naming friend. Hindi naman kasi sa nagtatampo, I mean, kung ako, hinahayaan ko siyang maging masaya kasama yung mga bestfriends niya, edi hayaan na lang din niya akong maging masaya sa bagong kaibigan ko diba? Basta yun.

Eh, nabasa nia nga na umiyak ako sa school. Sabi nia, wag ko daw masyadong ipakita sa school yung soft/weak side ko, kasi they see me as a strong-willed and very determined person kaya madidiscourage lang daw sila kung makikita nila akong umiiyak. And I will be vulnerable to others, if they see me cry. They might use my weakness against me to try to bring me down. Syempre, ayokong mangyari yun. There are times na nagffall-apart na yung klase namin, but I was always the one who was strong for the class. I held on tight. I never let go. Ayoko namang mapunta lang sa wala lahat yun.

Basta, ok na ko, I guess. And, oh, ayun nga, sabi ko kasi sa kanya, natutuwa lang kasi ako, dahil naniniwala sya sa mga kaya kong gawin, lagi nia kong ineencourage. Kaya sa school, gusto ko lagi ko syang nakikita, lagi ko syang nakakausap, just to get me through the day, just to give me enthusiasm sa klase, para ganahan akong mag-strive harder. Pag nakikita or nakakausap ko kasi sya, lumalakas ang loob ko. Parang ganun. Tapos sabi nia sakin, "Friends will always believe in each other. Remember that." So .. sinasabi nia na friend nia ko. Hehe. Something to make my day good enough despite of all the pain I felt throughout the day.

Grabe. Kasama na sya sa mga 'most important people in my life.' =) Syempre, sino bang nangunguna dun sa listahan ko na yun? Teka, eto.

1. Aaron Flores Geremia. - Showed me everything I needed to see, gave me strength when I was being weak, was and is always there for me, no matter what. Loves me beyond limits, one who never lets me go despite of my bad side, knows me inside out, encourages me when I feel so down, annoys me yet makes me feel loved at the same time. One who gave his whole heart to me and is willing to give his whole life for me -- and I love him for that. My significant other. Soon to be husband, and a father of my future children.

2. Maria Elena G. Calderon. - My very loving mother who never runs out of patience with me, though I was/am being hardheaded. Never went to bed if I'm still out with my friends, stays up waiting `til I come home even if it's pretty late. Cooks the best 'ginataang chicken' in the whole wide world. Loves me for no particular reason at all. Gives me strength during the day. Worked hard just to raise her own children, a role model, loving mother, my bestest friend. My Mom.

3. Maria Theresa C. Reyes. - Tita ko, who showed me the real meaning of the word 'family.' One who was/is always there to listen to my problems, stand by me no matter what. Treats me as one of her friends, and not just her niece. Share secrets with me. Hardworking mom, with very strong personality, yet to know her inside, she is one of the funniest woman you'll ever meet. My tita.

4. Alysha Calderon, Geraldine Medina. - Cutest little monsters in the world. Haha. My 2 little sisters. Annoying, but very sweet. Syempre, cute. Mana sa ate. Oh, wag nang kumontra. I just love them.

5. 'Family' - Includes .. titos, titas, cousins and everyone else sa family ko. Everyone related to me by blood. :)

6. Church people. - Special mention si Ayah, Ate Sharon at Ate Riza. My two ate's and one super-crazy friend! Always patient with me, though there are tough times.

7. School friends. - Both here in Dubai and in the Philippines. :)

8. Mr. Isagani Leonardo. - Best English teacher, ever! Very professional, very dignified. Sweet, friendly and treats his students as his friends too.

9. Mr. Ariston Peralta. - Best advice-giver. Experienced in life, talented, smart, flexible, and easy to get along with. Bestest guy friend I've ever had. Well-known for being approachable in times of need. A role model, good father image, someone to look up to.
So far .. yan pa lang naiisip ko. They are the people that really matters to me. Kung may nakalimutan ako, I'm sorry. Basta, yan yung mga taong mahal ko at sa tingin ko naman eh mahal din ako. They are my life. Yun yon.

Always,
Nel Geremia

You're all I need to be with

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